Well here it is; I have taken the first move to my new life as a healthier person. It was allot harder than I thought it would be. I sat at the computer for hours with the forms all filled out and my mouse hovering over the final purchase button. I knew if I took this step there was no turning back. I have been wanting to do a program like this for awhile. The cash up front is hard to part with I think to myself well I can cook. I dont need to have meals sent. The truth is that I wont. My biggest problem is not eating all day and then at night eating snack foods followed by Coke. I hope this will help me eat healthy during the day to get my metabolism going.

   I am so tired of being over weight!!! It keeps me from doing things I want to do. I am allways tired. I have joint problems that I know are made worse by my weight. I work as a Fashion Designer and Body Painter so I am allways surrounded by beautiful young women with perfect bodies.Dont get me wrong the are the sweetest girls you will ever meet. They do not judge me in anyway; but I judge me. I think of all the things I could be doing that they are doing.But Im too FAT! I can make beautiful couture clothing but I know it wont look right on my lumpy body so I make gorgeus clothes for others while I wear t shirts and sweat pants. It is so depressing when I finish a garment and then hand it over. Knowing I could never get away with wearing that! I want to get to the point where I feel good wearing the clothes that I make. I do not have an unrealistic body image. However I know when Im too fat to wear that.

   I am so excited now to take this journey. I cant wait until the me that is on the inside can be seen by others on the outside!