My battle:

I originally joined nutrisystem to see how expensive it would be. Unfortunetly we cant afford it. I am so bummed cause I feel like this is the only way I could lose weight at this point. By having the food already prepared and portioned for me would save me so much stress and anxiety about trying to lose weight. What I eat has become the last thing I think about because I have so much other stuff to stress over with 2 little kids running around and all the other responsiblities of a stay at home mom. I am a stress eater. The more stress I have the more I eat to try and cover those feelings or distract me. I have been dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety which doesn't help the situation. And yes, the weight, stress, anxiety, and depression are all linked. Im tired and frustrated with all of it. I want to lose weight so I can have some self esteem, I want my kids to learn good eating habits so they dont end up looking like me, and I want to feel sexy when my husband looks at me instead of feeling like a total turn off to myself. There are many stupid little thing standing in my way. Every time I even consider trying to lose weight, I panic and raid the cupboards for any junk food I can get my hands on, which totally defeats the purpose. Another road block is money. What I would really like to do is go through the cupboards and the fridge and completely wipe out all the junk food and restock it with only healthy stuff, but we dont have the money to do that and everytime I go the grocery store I always forget to look for healtier options (I need my own babysitter or a little fairy sitting on my shoulder to remind me). My bad habits have such a grip on my life and I cant break them. I even did weight watchers 2 years ago. I did it for a year and no matter how hard I tried to learn new habits, I always resorted to the bad ones cause i found everything way to stressful. It was just easier to buy what I already knew and was familiar with and knew I likes. Thats why I really wanted to try nutrisystem because everything is all pre portioned and you dont have to think about it. Another problem I tend to run into is my son is so picky about what he will eat and I have zero imagination when it comes to food. I also do not like most veggies and dont like seafood so the variety is very limited. I am so bored of the same ole same ole. I have a gym membership but am lucky to get there once a week. It is too cold to get outside and by the time you get both kids bundled up, you're all exhausted and my daughter isn't walking yet which means even more limits. I am really sick of all these excuses, but they are real and I feel like I am buried in them with no way out. Can anyone help me?