This is my new , used laptop, I got for 125.00 at the truckstop, whoopppeee. let me see if I can attach a photo, okay

 

This is what happened to my trailer, oops , just doesn't do it justice does it??

It seems I will be here till Monday, my truck is being held in lieu of payment for the salvage job done wioth my trailer, and boy is my company mad as heck about it too...but I think my job is secure until I can bring them back there truck , then whamo, see yah, wouldn't want to be yah, type of situation.

If that happened then , it would be for the best, but it would be tough on me, but if I found a cab job, somewhere that would be easy enough for me to get around, then I would feel pretty sure about getting back on track for good and maybe even finding my stride again.

Never give up I say, but this is my life and I do love being alive, don't we all, deep down love living, I know I do, even at this weight, because I know i can change and God willing, and he is, then the situation needed for me to succeed will find it's way to become my reality, I truly belive that, even after the disaster in Denver, I would do it again in Florida, Arizona, Alalska, Seattle, or where-ever I think I could make it work, any ideas or sugesstions , feel free...please

Have not weighed self for awhile, as i feel I may have gone up latel;y, hope not , but maybe...

 

I really did it today, I caught my trailer on fire and it was a total loss, but the fantastic fire dept, from pineville , mo. saved the truck thou.

Like my weight loss journey, it too has been a losing battle lately, and I think a change is necessary to make this work, why, well course both economically and ease of comfort foods, are to easily winning the battle , they are priced right, as my money must be budgeted, and Biscuits and Gravy, Hot dogs, the Dollar menu, are easy quick meals, meals that I do not need, but can't stop grabbing, sorry, i know this is pretty sad and stupid, but i will not lie here, it is almost impossible to say no to these foods, why, who knows, no discipline or even worse an underlining surrender to this fight for my life, and that is not the caser, but my action say otherwise, why, what do i do, how do i stop, yeah i know just stop, but i can't.....

is there still hope for me, maybe , but a change is necessary, and burning my trailer may have cost me my job, so a change is coming soon, probally, and that means back to the Rescue Mission, it don't take much to be homeless today, but where should i go, any great city that i could drive a taxi in, ?????

gotta go my time is up on this computer, more later if I can

God Bless you'all

 

I am in NJ for a load going to Ohio, Columbus to be precise, but it think I may be back tracking again.

I am not doing what I need to do, even had 2 dreaded pepsi's in the last 2 weeks, an I'm eating crazy again, this truck is getting the best of me again, how do I stop it, other than get out of it, which we found to not be an easy thing to do for me, I tried and ended up back in it again. Need a swift kick in the pants to straighten up and stay on course, but I'm unable to kick that high, help...

Hope you'all are doing fine, been keeping you in my prayers, hope it is working for you, let me know of your successess, please.

God Bless

It seems that I passed my drive test this morning and only now need to pass my Physical this afternoon, and I will be employed again, let's pray this happens.

I have been stressed a little lately, what , living in the Boise Rescue Mission, then getting a job and doing my best to make sure all goes well so I will be hired, like keeping my Blood pressure down low enough, somewhere below, 140 over 90,  under that and I will be okay, any idea's???

At 1pm I go for my Physical, so I will know this afternoon most likely, I do hope all of you'all are doing great today, my prayers are with you'all, remember, never never never give up...

Update later today, if I can

 

Two days at the Boise rescue Mission and I may be back on my feet, hopefully.

I don't want to Jinx anything, but I may be working by the end of the week, thank you all for the AWESOME PRAYER POWER OF ALL YOU PEOPLE, I mean really thank you.

If the job works I will let you'all know, it is a truck driving job, but it is work, and I am happy to have it.

 Will need help planning my weight loss journey from the truck, but I know that I will lose weight this time, as the truck will not be an excuse anymore, nope, no more excuses, losing weight is absolutely neccesary, so I will get it done, right, and with helop and prayers too.

 

 My prayers are wth you'all,   thanks again

Yep I am in Boise Idaho, still homeless and jobless, but at least here there ARE Taxi jobs to be had, and yes they cost money to go thru the hoops to get the license, but going thru loops is my speciality, I hope.

Still trying to keep thee weight down and the spirits up, so keep the faith all, I may be staying at the River Of Life , Mens Shelter here in Boise, so as I keep praying for all of you'all , please keep praying for me, thx

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I am trying this ticker, let's see how it does, cause even thou I am broke and homelless , I am still losing weight apparently, guess thats good, but it sure doesn't feel like something to celbrate thou.

It is Sunday and being homeless is taking its toll, even with food stamps, still it is scary after over 50 some applications filled out and sent in last week, everything I could sell is sold, nothing left but me, and of course my never quit attitude, just barely...

I may be losing the weight control issues, but at least have the walking thing down better , as everywhere I go I must walk, and it is good for me, keeps me at least kinda on track, and at times it seems to be a great test from above to see how well I handle it when it gets tough, how am I doing?????, hope i am doing okay, with this test, well keep the faith, okay

 

I will be brief here, as nothing has changed, still homeless, and thius morning I may try to head south, but not sure where.

I have still kinda held onto my eating habits, yes I did have a few pepsi's and B&G's again, but now I'm back on track for the weight loss, thou I am worried I'm not eating enough thruout the day, but I just can;t help that.