It seems that a few here think I am a fraud, con artist or some such, and when I think about it and think about the world today, okay.

But I am not a con man, I have refused money from a few people here, you know who you are, but I did take aweek of NS food from John, I had to try  it out and liked it well enough.

Now if someone offered me a private plane to take me to Germany and then give me a few grand to write some articles about how Germans feel about overweight Americans, that I might take, but let's be real who will do that for me?

Taking a 100 here or 200 here will do me no good in the long run, I work hard and do my best here, I did well enough to get to almost 500lbs, didn't I? I hung on as an Owner Operator loneeeger than most did,but eventually failed and was very close to being back on the streets again, but God willing that did not happen, and yet with all God did for me I am still not able to get control of my weight, or eating habits, why why why why, who knows why, please tell me, cause I can not figure it out.

It isn't to get pity from you guys and gals here. or to be thought of as a con man, nope it was to find some way to conquer this once and for all, maybe being a truck driver is not the answer, but it has got to be as I have nothing else to do or nowhere to live, so trying something else is out for now, till I work long enough to afford to try something else, which may be too long the way I am going now.

I must cool down and hit the road to Maine, no telling when I will be back on a computer again, as mine is toast, till then God bless you all.

patrick Kane

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