Prayers and thoughts with you, Patrick. I am so glad you have such a strong faith to guide you through.

Take care.

Patrick. I know you will get this worked out. You have the ability to succeed.

Good on you,

Chester in the Desert

I know how you feel. My husband is a trucker and we are paycheck to paycheck. His health hasn't been the best. I wish he could quit working and stay home. If your health means you have to give up that truck for a while. DO IT!!! get yourself well. Things will work out for you. We have been there a few times. It might not be easy but your life is worth it. Good luck to you. Carol

You made your decision clear in the very first sentence, "Not doing it will cost me my LIFE, how can this be something I even hesitate about." A job is a job and there will be plenty more to be had once you take care of your illness. You have a responsibility to yourself your family and GOD to live. Please heed your own advise and get yourself well and slender again because there is much to live for and you don't want to miss it.

to my frind patrick, it is easy for fols to say lose weight for your health ,but its not as easy as ity sounds. like many of my friends on here are so supportive and have helped me more than they know . but when you are going through my dear friend its not so easy at all . with all the pressur on u its no longer just the will power to sat well and healthy. like me with my severe depression and heart condition a nd being a cancer survivor not knowing whats in store for me in the future. but i know one thing many of us need help as i did when i had no food for me and verdelle . i had a friend one of the few which i soon lost cause for 2 months in a row a few months ago i asked for some milk and cornflakes asnd dog biscuits and splendor . thats right splendor . i was addicted to the sweet tast and feel like a heroin addick fells but never being one. i was once a drinker and heavy smoker for over 40 years but since have stopped cold turkey but for one day back in july 4th 2008 after crying over my friends that have died and some from high school who we were kids back in 1966. and they died way too yong. that is partly why i am bi-polar along with many other phicical and mental problems thus im on total dissabilit for over 25 years asnd for the rest of my life. but enough about me there i go again . but back to u buddy.im luck y like u sdaid i have a roof over my head. 1st u need to be in a hospita' i was in emergency room this past weekend for my heart.plese get help they will help even with no money. the rest we have to pray to "GOD.im trying to save some money. im leaving ns for a while . but if we all helped even a lil we can help u / "GOD bless u and keep in touch!luv rick and verdelle."CIAO"

i forgot one more thing buddy. to be honest i and a few of my friends didn't believe u , it sounded like a scam . but something in my heart told me u were telling the truth. and it was a cry for help . but good buddy and i want everyone to know this. when i told u i had only a few hundred to give u , you turned it down. so i know u were telling the truth. and i applaud u for that. and i think i told u my father was in the truking business for over 60 years. my brother has since taken over and made millions . he had his hands on all the jvc products from japan . tvs stereos etc. this was over 40 years ago till about 2 years ago. he is 70 now and 5 yrars ago he said he wasnt doing so well and he had lost the busineess. he thought that bigger and more trucks were better but found he got to big and couldnt handle it. i blame myself cause i could have owned half the business and been a multyi millionair. i went to pace college than had to leave cause of the viet nam war and joined the us army for 56 yeaRS when i got out i didnt finish college asnd worked for pan american airliners for 20 years which has since gone under over 20 years ago and did some weork in the movies.now im retired and live from check to check with nothing left at the end . of the month . i hope that i dont sound like im looking for a hanout cause i have been offererd free ns food which i couldnt except from strangers. and i am not asking now. like i was saying i paid back the 20 dollars he lent me for 2 months. but has since said he cant help me anymore in fear the checks would bounce . causing him bank fees. sop i have no friends. just one neighbor that said she will now watch verdelle iof i go in the hospital again. so there i go talking about me again . now i know ns has some kind rules on giving to members on here but y cant we help another human being. and i know that in a few months i will have some money to you if i dont get in trouble with ns. we help everyone around the weorl;d individually andv from our government but isnt it time gfor those of us to help of friends in america who need some help from us that are so unfortunate . "GOD BLESS U PATRICK althoug ill be gone for awhile i will keep in touch with u good buddy . 10 - 4 over and out.maybe someday tour dreams will all come true and i would be honered to have u as a neighbnor and hopefully i will have lost the last 69 lbs . bringing me tyo a toal loss of 212 lbs. a weight from 401 lb on feb 5th 2009. and now on nov 11th 268lbs. a loss of 133 lbs. i have since put a few on cause i had an emotional setback . but like i always say "NEVER GIVE UP"and i spoke to a ns employee that wasnt on ns but she said i convinced her after reading my story. "CIAO" for now.good luck to everyone on their ns journey." I KNOW U CAN DO IT"