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Emotional eating

2009-11-15T07:36:00Z

Today I found out my boyfriend of 3 years, (technically my fiance, haha but thats another story), is going to Afghanistan in a year and a half. It's so weird because I typically would have shoved my face with comfort food like big cheeseburgers and fries and its so hard not to. I think I'm underprepared in the way I have no idea how to deal with these kind of feelings. I spent a good part of the day crying, and though his leaving is far off and who really knows what the situation with the war will be like in a year or so, its still the point that my life will change. My best friend will be gone for a year and I'm not sure how to handle it. I wanted to cheat so badly, but this is my second time on Nutrisystem so I'm more determined and more aware that if I let myself cheat even once, its over for me. One cheat, leads to more for me, so its best I don't cheat at all. Does anyone have any tips as to how to deal with these cravings and urges when emotional events happen in our lives? Whenever I was really upset, I use to just fill myself with junk food. Anything I could find. So to now fill myself with salad it totally sucks, but Im not giving up. I need this for my health. Even my boyfriend who never passes any opinion on my very obvious weight gain, (He's about 50 pounds skinnier then me. ughh) said he just wants me to be healthy, and I feel like more then ever I want to show him my weight loss before he leaves. Thanks <3 Britt.

Glad to be back:)

2009-11-07T06:11:00Z

I forgot just how much I love the way Nutrisystem makes me feel. Sure I'm hungry some of the time, and its hard not ever being "full" but I'm glad I'm back and changing my life. I'm also happy that though I took a 2 month break, I only gained 6 pounds. So I lucked out with the foods I ate. I just have to stay focus, and talk to my wonderful Nutri-friends. They keep me on track. It'll be a long haul but it'll be so worth it when I'm a hot girl again:)

Lets try this again, NEED A BUDDY??

2009-11-05T06:28:00Z

So after much success with Nutrisystem (20 pounds) I fell off the horse and refused to get back on. After a while I swore that one more bite of Nutrisystem food would make me vomit all day. Haa well eating pizza or spaghetti every single day didnt help much either. So here I am again, feeling slightly like a failure again and determined to not give up. I always feel like I try to lose weight to impress every single other person other then myself. Especially men. Like whenever I hit a bump in my relationships I blame it on how I look. Like if I was this skinny maybe my boyfriend would pay more attention to me. I'm thinking I need a buddy to help me keep on top of this. I want this, it just always seems so far out of my reach. So if you need a buddy let me know! I know I do.

2 months, 21 pounds.

2009-09-19T10:57:00Z

I'm unstoppable. I'm so excited to start a new chapter of my life. I still have a long road ahead of me, but I'm so excited for the future. I'll never let myself get that big again. Ever. I'm almost under the 200 mark, which is amazing to me because I never knew how to lose weight so I figured this was my life. I would always be a bigger individual. And to anyone struggling, dont give up or get discouraged! I've def cheated a few times which I'm not proud of and came to some low points, but I stuck to it. Anything that you want for yourself is possible. Good luck everyone<3

Down another 2 :]

2009-09-05T09:28:00Z

That makes me 16 pounds lighter in a month and a half :) Now, if you excuse me I'm gonna go celebrate by eating a apple. Haha never thought I'd say that.

Got my next shipment of food yesterday

2009-08-25T06:49:00Z

THANK GOD:) I dont know about any of you, but ordering 6 cups of split pea soup wasn't too smart without tasting it first :) haha lets just say its far from campbells. I was never so happy to see cheese puffs and pretzels in my life:) 12 pounds gone forever baby:) I can now take my pants off without unbuttoning them first. its like a new talent.

Part 2 I got cut off:(

2009-08-12T09:33:00Z

and wings delivered to our table? My friends are becoming more supportive of my lifestyle change in eating, but sometimes forget and offer me some of their food because they see me just sitting there. I wasn't starving though. I ate my NS dinner and dessert before arriving, and only ate a salad at the resturant as my dinner vegtable serving. Thats right. I did NOT touch a single greasy wing or a pizza slice. Woo hoo. It was hard. I couldn't even look at the food honestly but I did it.

First time at a resturant while on NS.

2009-08-12T09:14:00Z

I can't say I wasn't scared, because I was. I was really nervous. We went to this amazing italian resturant called Twin Trees in Syracuse which has deliciousss pizza, wings and pasta. I grew up on their food and even had my 18th birthday party there with tons of old friends before graduation. Anyway, I was really scared but I knew this was the test I needed. Did I have it in me to keep my hands off the tray of garlic pizza

Ok everyone..

2009-08-08T11:26:00Z

It's been 2 weeks and to date I've lost 9 pounds! (Weighed myself today and lost 3 more this week, equaling 9 all together) Wooo. Only 80 more pounds to go. haha. I try not to look at it that way because its sooo much. Take it day by day and make my short term goal to lose 10 pounds, and then just repeat the goal after I lose the preceding 10. Its easier to look at 10 pounds, 8 times then 80 pounds, atleast for me.

Successs feels good:)

2009-08-04T11:47:00Z

I feel like a different person. A reborn person. A healthier person. I feel like I'm cleaning out my system with all these vegtables. I'm excited for the future. So far Im 6 pounds lighter, and hopefully itll be more when I weigh myself on Sat. I look forward to weighing myself, which is so weird for me and Im sure for others who have struggled with their weight their whole lives. Lets take a little trip back to elementary school where I remember weighing about 140 pounds in 5th grade. I hated gym. I skipped gym, even in High School. Going to a big HS guarenteed a few thing. A swimming pool, and co-ed classes. Being forced to swim really should have been prohibited. It could have been a choice, but it wasn't. I took a "20" as a grade in 10th grade for gym that semester because I refused to swim. And the gym teachers at my school werent too nice about it either. They really had no sympathy for me, being overweight. They look at it as my fault. It partially was, but when your in HS or younger, your resources are limited. I didn't have the money for Nutrisystem in 10th grade or a gym membership. I really don't even have the money now but I knew my health was depending on it and I did what I had to to join. For a while I had given up on myself. Destined to be fat forever I'd eat huge bags of chips. I thought this is what I'm going to be for my whole life, or I'll change someday or I'm getting my girl issues so I can eat 3 bags of candy and chips. I hadnt found anything that ever worked for me. and now that I have Im excited. I cant wait to see how I look a year from now. Bye bye big butt -- hello hot new girl. ;)