Dropping by to say hi!   Its been a very long, tiring week.  I started back on graves this last week.  Body just not adjusting yet.  So I have been incredibly tired.   Food wise I did really good.  I got a pattern down of getting up and having oatmeal and coffee for my breakfast,  a sandwich for lunch.   Then dinner I was grilling a piece of chicken before work and grabbing a bag of steam fresh vegetables.  I would take them to work and heat everything up and it was really good and filling.   Then I would take unsweetened applesauce with cinnamon sprinkled on top, pineapple and sliced strawberries and that would be what I would snack on.   Weight has pretty much stayed the same all week.  I would love to say I worked out some, but not at all.  Pretty sure I broke my little toe on Thursday.   Very sore if touched and a lovely shade of black.  So between being very tired and my foot I haven't been very active.    However, I actually have a real weekend.  I have had over time every weekend for the last month so it really hasn't felt like time off at all in a while.   So looking forward to getting back on my feet literally and physically.  

Slowly working on stuff around the house today.   Honestly feel like I am getting sick.  I feel run down and no energy. I was fighting nausea last night at work. Yes I am on graves but I have been on night shift for the last 6 weeks.  I was going to bed at 3 before.  I am having a hard time believing that 4 hours would make this big of a difference.  Well at least I have the weekend to get rested up.   I am hoping by tomorrow I will feel much better and my foot won't be so sore and I can start walking.  I really think that will make a difference in how I feel. 

Well tonight I am going to concentrate on easy stuff.  Getting laundry caught up etc.   Been watching Longmire marathon so its been kind of nice.  Both that and my favorite show The Glades premier this weekend so at least there is stuff to by lazy and watch with.  

Did anyone else get the request for your story in your email?   I did and filled it out thinking it was for NS.  I even included pictures.  Of course I got this at the beginning of the week when I was just starting this shift and incredibly tired.   I was thrown off when I found out later on it wasn't for this site.   I can't do anything about it, but I would have done things differently if I had known it wasn't for NS directly.  I trust this site, but I don't like putting my personal info with pictures on sites I am not familiar with.  What done is done I just wished I really would have realized it wasn't for NS really. 

I hope everyone is having a safe and wonderful holiday weekend.  Please be safe if you are out on the roads.   Spring is here and I have had to work nasty crashes every night this week.  Every single one of them could have been prevented.  All were due to speeds, alcohol, no seatbelts, and all were one vehicle rollovers.  I would hate to lose any of you.   You guys are wonderful!

Kelli

Bullet dodged!!!

So yesterday I vented on my money screw up.  Seriously had me freaked out all day and well all night.  I went to bed at 1am last night knowing that I would need to get up at 8am to call that loan place and try to cancel it.   Plus I was having sweet cravings like you would not believe!!  Well sleeping wasn't in the cards,  I would try but my brain would not shut down so I watched Practical Magic trying to concentrate on the movie to sleep.  It helped for a bit no sleep but I did think of something.  They said they were opened 8-8.  But on what time zone?  So I called the phone number for the loan place and they said EST.   It was 3am here now so I stayed up till 6am watching movies.   I called right away at 6am and they were able to cancel my loan request!!!  Yeah!!!

So huge weight off my shoulders, so funny I was so tired all night but by then I was wide awake.   Haven't had a lot of sleep today, but had to get up early because I have to work an overtime shift.  Thankfully its only 4 hours. 

I also woke up from an email from my bank with good news.  That original payment from Kohls has not tried to clear my account.  They told me they will hang on to the form and make sure it doesn't clear before Friday.   So everything worked out wonderfully!!!  Whoo hoo!!!

Weight is doing good, its slowly moving down.  SLOWLY.  Usually I gain weight when my period starts, I figure its water retention.  But this time I haven't gained any at all.  Actually its staying the same number and to be honest I feel like I am retaining water so I have a feeling I have actually lost.   I have been avoiding my usual cravings--sweets. 

Well today is going to be a good day.   At least I am sure of this once I no longer feel like a zombie.  I work from 4-8pm.  I think I am going to go walk when I get off.  Not sure it will be the work track or my neighborhood.   I will play that by ear.  But it sounds wonderful.  If I didn't have to get ready for work, I would go now.  Actually I would go back to bed ;o)

Have a great day everybody!

Kelli

I am venting to relieve some stupid stress so you don't have to read any further because it may not even be worth it ;o)

Okay hormones suck.  They truly do, but I know they are they culprit to me freaking out over the stupidest thing.   Seriously stupid!  So yesterday I was figuring out my budget and was so excited that I was able to pay off a couple of bills.  One of them being my Kohl's card that I went ahead and set up payments for those bills to come out on Friday when I get paid.   Everything looked good, I put them in my register and continued on.  Last night I remembered I needed to purchase cat food which is $100, its prescription, but I hadn't budgeted for it.  So I decided to change my mind on paying my Kohls since that was the largest of the bills.  I was going to take off $100 to cover the food and pay the remainder of the bill on my next payday.  No big deal, went to the website and they show it was processed and approved.  Okay total freak out.  I don't have this money at all in my account.  Not even enough to cover the fee if it bounces.  I am broke till Friday.  So I called Kohls asking them what happened and they told me I should be able to cancel it the website, well its not possible.  They couldn't do anything on their side.  I have no idea how it could have approved when I have less than $10 bucks in the account.  Thank God everything else has cleared so I don't have to worry about that.  So I told them, put a note, its going to bounce but I would bring it current on Friday.  This should have been okay.  I should have just walked a way.  But I panicked.  See I used to have money issues, like bounced checks were a norm for me.  Not proud of myself but I finally learned how to budget and turn everything around and I am doing really good.   But the thought of bouncing a check when I haven't in a couple of years scared the crap out of me.  I not only changed my weight when I joined my NS I also changed my finances.   As of this Friday, I would have been completely debt free.   I think it was knowing I was so close that panicked.   Well I am kicking myself.  I signed onto one of those money places and qualified online to get a loan and hit enter.  Then really panicked.  I did not want to do that!!  That was incredibly stupid!!!  Why pay an extra $100 when I could just pay $25 and move on??   I tried calling them to cancel my request and of course they are closed and said you can send an email.   I sent an email telling them I do not want the loan and to not process the request.  According to the website it wouldn't be processed till Monday.  I also plan to call them when they open Monday morning.  There is a paragraph on the loan saying you have one business day to change your mind and pay it back in full with no fees.  I remembered that I had a dispute form for the bank so I printed that out and turned it in to the night drop box.   Now here is hoping that this loan never hits my account.  If it does I need to get to the bank before the Kohls charge does so it doesn't clear so I can return that money.  The tricky part is I am starting graves this week and staying up till 6am,  I work at 4pm tomorrow.  I am stressing over not getting this cleared.  BUT I need to convince my worry wart self that everything will be okay.  I haven't ruined my hard work to change things around.   This is fixable and by Friday I will be out of everything completely and I will never had to worry about this again. 

Holy cow this venting is working.  I had nightmares all night, I even flew out of bed after 2 hours of sleep trying to place these stupid calls forgetting that today was Sunday.   I woke up today incredibly tired, hearing my blood pumping in my ears, teary eyed, nauseated, and stressed out over this stupid mistake.  And this is all that it is.  Just a stupid mistake that fixable.  Plus God thought it would be funny to Aunt Flo visit because the party is never fun enough until you throw in the bitchy Aunt from hell.   Its a probably a good thing I live a lone and feeling anti social today. 

Well my blood pressure doesn't feel sky high anymore and I am starting to relax.   Its funny, I handle a gaining stupid pound or two better than making a mistake on my bank account.  I think its because my body I feel more in control of. Never thought I would be able to say that.   But I know its all up to me to make good decisions for it.  No one else has a say in it.  But come to financial life, its still a scary thing for me.  I know for a fact I scheduled that payment for the correct day, I have the email proof.  But I still go in panic mode and make stupid decisions trying to fix it.  And that is what got me in trouble before.   UGH.   Breathe Kelli... nothing more I can do.  I have done everything I can and whatever happens--happens.

So I am going to focus on other stuff.   I get to go on a real vacation in July.   But I feel bad, I opened my mouth too fast. Yes this was yesterday too.   Damn, I am seeing a pattern here.  I have vacation at the end of July and I wanted to go some where. On the drive into work Friday night I called my Mom and asked her if she would go to Oklahoma with me.   My Aunt lives there and I haven't been there in like 7 years.   I couldn't afford to go to Florida, one ticket was $500 and that is a lot of money.  But I thought I road trip to Oklahoma with my Mom would be fun.  We did that before and it was wonderful plus we could take my new car.  Well I got off at midnight and posted on my Aunt's Facebook that I was thinking of coming to see her.  Both my cousins jumped on it and were excited.  They live out in the middle of nowhere, heck the closest grocery store is 2 hours away.  Well I get up yesterday morning with a message from my Mom to call her.   So I did, turns out that my parents wanted to take me back to the coast but northern Washington.   There is a navy base they stayed at on the Ocean and I guess there is a rainforest and a bunch of other stuff there that they want me to see.   It sounds wonderful and more me.   My Mom also said she thinks my Aunt is coming here to see us.   Well I have to admit the coast wins.  I love my family but it would mean sitting in the house the entire time because its incredibly hot that time of year and nothing near.  My cousins do not live there.  Nick lives in Tulsa and that is 3 hours away and my vacation is weekdays.  I am not sure he could get time to come visit.  And Leighann lives several hours away in Texas and I know she is having some financial issues and my not afford to be able to be there either.    But I woke up to an email from my Aunt excited about me coming and I had to be honest with her that I may not come now.  Ugh, apparently I need a text message to tell me not to make any decisions or talk when I am PMS'ing.  You would think by now that I would recognize when I am over emotional.  But seriously when you are by yourself and not having to talk to anyone you don't always realize you may not be a good decision making part of your life. 

Well thank you for letting me vent, believe it or not, this helps.  I am sure no one else cares and it doesn't bother me if no one reads this.  But sometimes I need to talk and this is not something I want to talk to my parents about.  Seriously, I know I made a stupid decision, I do not need to be lectured on it.   I have also done everything I can to fix it.  Everything will work out, it always does.  And this is not worth stressing over.  

I think today I am going to keep myself busy and be productive.  Make the best out of today. 

So good...

I am like the best pet owner EVER!!!  LOL  Both of my runts have been playing on the cat tree non stop since I got up this morning.  Which freaking rocks, because honestly all the money I have spent on them over the years they have maybe only played with 25% of it.   LOL  I think this is why I kept putting off investing in one of these things.  Especially knowing it was going to be huge to accommodate 2 fat cats. 

So very happy to report I slept, like holy cow I slept!!  I have not slept this good in I don't know how long.  But I feel wonderfully human again :o)   Especially after yesterday, I feel so much better.  I was a little stressed out yesterday :o)

So good news, the canker sore seems to have healed.  I still have the scar tissue knot.  But its feels smaller today and not sore at all.  Doesn't look infected either.   This really makes me feel better.  Part of me was worried that if it still had some infection in it then it may complicate the surgery.  I told my supervisor last night and gave her a heads up.  I plan on working Tuesday night but if I can't it sounds like it will be okay as long as I let them know early enough.  I would think I would know as soon as I am done what to expect.   I am worried about being too sore to talk since its my lip.  I don't know if I will have stitches or anything.  Yes I worry too much, this is me.. embrace it :o)

So other news, I was at work last night and talking to a couple of friends.  I mentioned we all got a really nice bonus.  Its our fiscal year end and our work is different.  Meaning that we don't get raises like most places do.   We were actually on a pay freeze for several years.  Which we were okay with because I rather keep my job.  I have been there 8 years as of next week and I have never had this nice of a bonus, heck I think I have only had a bonus 2 other times??  But nothing like this so its pretty cool.  Its enough to get my remaining debt paid off.  I will just have my rent, car, payments, and utilities.  But they also tax the crap out of it, I think 40% of it??  Well my coworkers told me I could change my W4 for this one time.  They did that last week.  I attempted to do last night.  It was submitted and she thinks I made it on time but I won't know until tomorrow.  If it doesn't work oh well.  But if it did hopefully this means I will be able to make a bigger difference.  Sucks that things get taxed so much.  Last time we got a bonus they taxed out my entire bonus plus some.  I never even saw it.  Hard not to get a little disgruntled over that.   I don't want to wait till next Spring to get it. 

Well my weight had gone up a little bit from Mother's day.  But just weighed myself and its back down again to where I was.  I am used to fluctuations and don't really care.  I weigh every day but I only count it once a week.  My body will fluctuate so much during a week its ridiculous but at least it doesn't stress me out anymore.

Well everything is really good, going to be a great day!  Going to head off to start my day.  Have a great day!

Kelli

Well not the greatest news so far.  Didn't sleep so well, was worried about sleeping through the alarm.  Went to my appointment at the dentist.  They referred me to a oral surgeon.  Basically I have a knot where the canker sore is at.  It has scarred up so much that its formed a knot and that is why I keep biting the dang thing.  The only thing to do now is to remove it.  I have an appointment for that next Tuesday morning.  Should be interesting.  I work a grave that night.  So I figured I will get up go have it done and come back and sleep all day.  Hopefully by the time I work at 8 it will be fine.  She said the procedure is about 30 minutes long unless its in a bad spot.  I am looking at this as optional so I don't stress out.   :o)  If its not going to hurt me in a long run and if its going to be a pain and expensive to remove then it may be a new part of my body.  Not like anyone can see it, doesn't show up when I smile.  Just drives me nuts. 

I came home and went to bed for about 2 hours.  Got up and their cat tree had arrived.  Took my about an hour to put it together but its up.  Very heavy!  Cooper climbed up into one of the condos and is out cold.   Daisy won't touch it.  LOL Figures, I really needed her to love it because she is the one who is being destructive.  But she is curious about it.  She is laying next to me on the couch staring at Cooper and talking my ears off.   So I think it will be just a matter of time for her.   Neither one of them has ever seen one before.  Not so sure Daisy knows what to do with it.   I set it up in front of my patio doors.   I won't have any privacy really in my living room but they will have a view and half of the yard and they are here more than I am.

Well I just noticed the time, its almost 2 already.  So not ready for this day to begin but I am bound and determine its going to be a good one.  At least I know this stupid sore is just a knot of scar tissue.  She referred the surgery as more like plastic surgery so even though the entire idea of surgery scares the crap out of me its not coming across as anything medically scary.  So that is a relief.  God knows I am very much a worry wart.  But if they are telling me I will be there about an hour, I can drive home.  Well I am taking that means I won't be knocked out and I should be able to work too.  So that can't be that bad right?  

Well enough of me talking this to death.  I need to get ready for my work day.  Have a great day!!!

Well pretty uneventful day.   I woke up grumpy, my phone started going off at 630 this morning.  I went to bed at 4am, I start graves in a week.   Thankfully I missed the original calls, I happen to wake up (Thank you very little Cooper) at 830 to see all these missed calls.  The number wasn't identified but the phone number looked like one of our work numbers from a different region.  We dispatch for 4 different regions from our center and the number was close.  Well it ticked me off because all I could think is I work nights, I am already working 2 days of my weekend for overtime including today at 4pm.  We are almost fully staffed there is no reason to be calling me to work or even calling me that flipping early.  I decided to ignore and ended up having guilt dreams.  But no voice mail was left so I kept telling myself it wasn't important.  Well I didn't sleep well and woke up grumpy. 

I have had a stupid canker sore on the inside of my lip since February.  Showed up a couple of days after getting my teeth cleaned, I figured I got poked during the exam.  It would fester up, it doesn't hurt.  When I would think well tomorrow I will call the dentist it would look much better.  I have been cleaning it with hydrogen peroxide and Orajel.  And it never fails just when it would be just about gone I would freaking bite it again while eating and it would fester back up.  Well Mother's day I bit the crap out of it repeatedly through out the day.  I have no freaking ideal why, it was actually looking really good that morning as if it was almost healed.  Well it sore, bruised, and really swollen today.  I finally called the dentist and I have to go in early in the morning to have it checked out.   Makes me nervous.  Its just in a horrible spot.  If I could just quit biting the dang thing I wouldn't have to go tomorrow.  

To top off my wonderful morning, the scale was up and my shipment that I was so excited for didn't arrive either.  Adding in having to go into work when I didn't feel I have even had a weekend really sucked. 

So at work I got another call from the same number.  Thankfully this time the person left a message.  I can't have my cell with me but if I get a voice mail I can check it in my email.  It seriously made me giggle.  It flipped my switch.  It was an elderly lady, and it seriously said "Kelli??? Who in the hell is this Kelli??   Adam this is your Grandma, you better call me back young man you have some explaining to do!!!!!"  It was freaking hilarious.  So I decided to call her back at 3am and wake her butt off to tell her I have no clue who Adam is.  I figured waking her up was only fair.  :o)  But I gave her mercy, I called her when I got home.   She was very sweet and very confused.  I have a feeling I will be getting more calls from her.   She couldn't comprehend that she has the wrong number completely. 

 I may not be able to control what is around me but I can control how I react.  I can also control my decisions.  So I have measured my food out for the day, not just eyeballing actually got the measuring cup out.  Played with Daisy with her favorite toy which has been hiding for months now.  I actually got her so tired that she could just lay there and pant and half a$$ chatter :o)  She would just look at me, slow blink at me and purr.  I think Daisy had a really good day!  Cooper is currently laying on my wrists and purring while I am trying to type.  Its taking forever with my corrections but he is warm.   I just overdosed on fruit.   I had mixed fruit in a bowl and it was wonderful.  I was craving coffee like crazy, seriously craving it.   So I got up and made my chai tea (less caffeine) and grabbed some more pineapple.  Very full and content.  

Good news is because my dentist appointment is so early I get to go to bed early and not feel guilty about it.   Then I get to come home and go back to bed when its over with.  AND hopefully they can give me something so this stupid thing goes away and I can stop biting it!!!!   I just checked Amazon and my order is in town and should be delivered tomorrow.  Hopefully it will arrive early enough that I can put it together before work.  Its this really tall cat tree.  Its silly that I am excited about this but I love new stuff and I am incredibly hopefully that my runts will love this so much that some of their destructive behavior will be fixed.   I saw previews for my favorite show, The Glades, finally its coming back on!!!  Woot!!! Woot!!!  And honestly today wasn't that bad.   Being a grumpy butt wastes so much good energy that its tiring.  And not in a good way.  

Ohh!! I almost forgot!!! On the way into work I went to my favorite coffee shop.  Turning into the parking lot I got check out but 2 cute guys.  Pulled up to the window which was on the other side of where they were parked they grinned at me.  I also got told by the several employees they love my new haircut.   LOL  Kind of sad when a drive thru coffee shop feels like Cheers!  LOL 

Well this is my rambling for today.  Makes absolutely no sense but I feel quite content. :O)    I am going to head to bed, its almost midnight.  Not sure if I will be able to sleep this early but we shall see.  

Have a great night!

Kelli

Hmmm interesting day....

:o)

Well emotions seem to be running high in the blogs today.  Some people having some great positive outlooks and accomplishments.  And well, some people definitely not and have no problem going in the attack mode.  I say this smiling because I think everyone has a valid reason to feel the way they feel and they have the right to vocalize it.  And I have the right not to agree with it.  I do think we all need to remember to focus on the positive.  And remember that writing out our thoughts and feelings is not the same as face to face.   We can't see each others emotions and expressions, nor do we really know each other.  And we all know how sensitive we are about our weight.  I do love how supportive everyone is and for the most part this always comes through.  I also get tickled how protective we are of each other and our community.  It only shows how invested we are in bettering ourselves and those around us.  Which I think is pretty awesome.   But I will be the first to admit, I will back off reading blogs when the negativity kicks in.  Its more self preservation for myself, not because I don't care.  

Well I am rambling, blogs just really struck me today.  And I count on this being my safe place.  It was my support system last year, when none of my friends and family believed I could succeed.  I may never meet anyone on here, but I remember everyone that has supported me and you all have become a very important part of my life.   This is why I still come on here every day even though I am no longer eating NS foods and trying to lose my last 10 lbs on my own.  I still need the positivity and support from my NS family.  However, I do not need the negativity.  I realize everyone has their bad days, but holy cow some REALLY are having bad days.  I am only saying something tonight because honestly, this isn't just today.  Seems like this has been an almost every day occurrence this last week.  Maybe I am just being hypersensitive.  God knows this wouldn't be the first time I took things the wrong way. ;o)

Well off my soap box.  My day was okay.  I went over to my parents house about 2pm.  I had bought my Mom the Eagles DVD that is out.  We watched part of it before my siblings showed up.  My lighter version coconut macaroons were a huge success. Definitely a better recipe than our original one.   The chocolate yogurt dip was awful, I even added sugar free cool whip and some vanilla to try to kill some of the bitterness.  Wasn't possible.  It was dumped.   Dinner was fabulous, I ate too much.  Thankfully I split it up.  Basically my lunch was dinner at my Mom's.  And then I brought home left overs for supper.   There is a good chance I could see this kick my butt tomorrow.  Oh well, its fixable. 

My sister in law visited with me the entire time, it was pretty cool . They have been married for almost 25 years and Terri has never really included me in any conversations.  Tonight it felt like I had a another sister.  Was really nice.   I felt included, which usually when my family gets together it is quite the opposite.  Everyone is coupled up, older, and into racing and fishing.   I am the quiet one in the family and really don't have anything in common.   My sister's boyfriend's Mom came, very nice lady.  I hate to say this but they are all very heavy.  My sister has gained more weight than I have ever seen her.  Its scary, she will be 49 this year and already has high blood pressure.  I have never seen her this heavy and she always been heavy.   Mike's Mom made a comment about me be really skinny and it must be nice to never have to worry about being fat.  It was really weird to be told that.  I know we have never met before.  My brother and sister in law are and have always been in good shape.  Terri has one heck of a figure on her.  So I am thinking she is thinking I am like them.  I have been struggling with weight issues since I was little.   I told her thank you but this is new and I still have a ways to go.  That I lost 40, gained a little back, and now fighting to reach my goal.  I was so flustered by what she said.  To be told I was skinny was pretty cool.  I am proud of my accomplishments, but when I look in the mirror, I still see what I need to work on.  I don't see the girl that I was, but I don't consider myself skinny.  BMI says I am still chubby.  I may not be as fat as I was, but I am not where I need to be yet.  But I am definitely more comfortable in my body.  Happier.

I have rambled quite a bit, but its killed some time.  I think I can head to bed now.  I need to stay up later, but I have been ready for bed since 8pm.  At least its 1am. 

Have a great night!

Kelli

Kelli will be going shopping soon!!!   I just saw a news story on Fox for the new Fitbit Flex.  

 http://video.foxnews.com/v/2371966232001

I miss my old one but I think I will like this one much better.  Hopefully next payday I can do this.  If not, it will be very shortly after. :o)  

Hmm well I just got up about 20 minutes ago, pretty sure my cats are conspiring against.  Very long night and not a lot of sleep.  Woke up slightly grumpy, sneezing, and a headache.  Have to love spring and all its wonderful allergies. 

Since then, I have made up my dip for my fruit tray.   Its different, but looks promising.   You take 1 1/2 cups of plain yogurt, line a strainer with cheese cloth, stick the yogurt in it and let it sit for 8 hours in the refrigerator.  Honestly don't get why, I haven't noticed anything draining out of it, but I did that last night.   This morning I melted 2 T of mini semi sweet chocolate chips, 2 T of fat free milk, 10 mini marshmallows on low heat.   I am now waiting for it to cool down so I can mix everything together.   I found a recipe for coconut macaroons that is a little healthier.  It doesn't used the the sweetened condensed milk that I always used.   Was a little worried about them.  But they are really good, and its 2 cookies for the same calories as one cookie in the original recipe.  I had a heck of a time of finding fruit last night.  My grocery store was beyond busy and pretty much cleaned out.   However, I did finally find some mixed precut fruit bowls.   I have combined them together.   I figured they can dip the fruit or macaroons in the chocolate sauce if they want too or not.  My Mom also has left over sheet cake that she made for a dinner party last night.  So there should be enough to cover the healthy and not so healthy options. 

Its supposed to be in the 90's today.  I am so not excited about that.  I love the 70's and 80's,  just not the 90's and above.  Hehehe holy cow that fits my music taste too!

Well I need to finish getting everything ready and get myself ready as well.   I hope everyone has a fabulous Mother's Day and enjoy yourselves!!  Remember everything is fixable so if you splurge a little its not the end of the world.  Its a learning experience, no guilt allowed!

Kelli

Happy Saturday!!!

I am pound down today!!!  Whoo hoo!!! That puts me at 2lbs total lost for the week!!  Yep!!! I have food on my own down!  LOL  Though I may become a creature of habit and stick with it.  But its safer.   I am writing this out for my own benefit so I never forget it.

Breakfast  --steel cut oatmeal with 1tsp sugar free syrup, pinch of splenda brown sugar, pinch of salt, cinnamon, and  fat free milk. 

Coffee with sugar free creamer.

I roasted a turkey breast earlier this week.   So lunch bas been a turkey sandwich with a handful of low salt potato chips. 

Dinner has been a grilled pork chop with 1 T bbq sauce on top of it.  Sides have been canned vegetables (asparagus or green beans).  Basically this is easy and quick to warm up at work.  I pre grilled the pork chops.   I just reheat everything together.  Worked out better than I thought.

Fresh fruit --pineapple, strawberries, and watermelon. 

Dessert (chocolate fix) well that has been either a mocha with a fireball shot (boy I have been craving those lately)  or a fiber one brownie.

I know not exciting, but like I said, I lost 2lbs this week I need to remember this.   I no longer log my food on here well because honestly most of what I eat is not listed anywhere and its a pain in the neck.   So I try to keep with the idea of it when planning my food. 

Well I have to work a few hours today at 4.  I should get my butt up and get something done.  Instead of sitting here and watching Beerfest --yes classy movie but it makes me laugh.  

Well I am going to get my butt moving and see what I can accomplish before work.  I hope everyone has a beautiful Saturday!

Kelli

I have successfully accomplished absolutely nothing today.  Not real upset over this either.   Pretty much spent the day sitting on the couch.  Boy its been forever since this has happened.  I had and still have a lot I need to do but I really don't care.  :o)

Good news is I have been good on food.  I have ignored the dangerous cravings today.  I did get up and play Dance Central, its been since last fall since I had played any games.  Surprised how tired and hot I got.  Pretty fun though.  Plus I don't feel so guilty for being lazy today.   I should have walked, the weather was beautiful but I never left the house until like 730 when I ran and got a coffee.  It was my dessert and caffeine treat since its payday.  I need to stay up late though.  Its not even midnight but dang I could go to sleep now.   I start graves in less than 2 weeks so I need to make myself stay up till 4am.  Not sure that is going to happen but its worth a shot!

I have come up with a final decision for Mother's day.  Still doing fresh fruit.   I found a dip and I can make it really low calorie.  You just mix cool whip and vanilla pudding.  I can do both sugar free.   I am now thinking of adding a batch of brownies to the mix.   Then everyone can pick and choose and its more dessert like. 

So one cool thing today, well it shows me as the beginner cat lady hehehe.  But I have been wanting to get a cat tree for the runts for years.   I never really had the money or the room for it.  Well with getting rid of that stuff I now have a perfect spot for it and I got a really good deal on one today.   Here is hoping that at least Daisy will go for it and will stop using the door frames and carpet for a scratching post. 

Well I am not exactly exciting today.  Can you tell I haven't talked to anyone really and I am trying to stay awake? Well except for the weird email my Mom sent me.  She has requested that I email her every day when I get home from work to let her know I made it safely because she said if something happened to me no one would notice for awhile.  She said my sister has a boyfriend so he would notice her.  But since I have no one, it could be days for anyone notices me.   I have to admit this was rather insulting to me.  I know its all based off those poor girls that were found safe in Ohio.  And I know she meant it with love.  But in some ways, I can't help but think you waited till I was 40 to start caring and I AM 40, I am not going to check in with you on everything that I do.   Besides, I work 7 minutes from where I live.  When I am driving home at 2am, there is only cops that I pass patrolling.   Or at 6am, people are going to work.  I don't put myself in situations that are not safe, and if I am going to do something unusual, I let them know anyways.  I take precautions. 

Well, I downloaded several books.  Think I am going to curl up with my Kindle.   I think I have talked your ears off enough :o)

Goodnight!

Kelli

Okay what do you guys think????

I am thinking of making fruit kabobs and either making a like small sugar cookie or ginger or some type of cookie and stringing a cookie on it with the fruit.  It am thinking I could make a small bite size cookie and it would satisfy those in my family who think they must have a real dessert.  Half my family hates angel food cake (seriously that is messed up) because I like the idea of doing that too.  But i could even do like a pecan sandie and use it basically as a stand.  Those used to be my Mom's favorite cookie.  Okay I am thinking the pecan sandies or Russian cookies or snowballs however you want to refer to them as would work great.

I think that is the winner :o)