You would think that I wouldn't haven waited so long to start a diet considering I'm getting married in less than 6 months. You would think that getting married would give me all the motivation in the world. You would think... I guess it's finally hitting me that this is actually happening, and hey, you better start to do something now. I've tried so many diets in the past, which I did have success with, but never stuck with. I'm determined this time to make this my last "diet" and actually succeed like I know I can. I feel like losing weight is something you need to do for yourself, almost like quitting smoking. I don't smoke but know people who do and as much as people tell them to stop smoking they can't until they are ready to do it for themselves. I feel the same way since I have a mother that is always on my butt to lose weight. It's hard to get mad when I know its true and that she loves me more then anything, but when you're not ready, you're not ready. I don't know if I'm 100% ready this time but I know if I don't start now time is running out. I have never done nutrisystem before so I am eager to get started and see what it is all about. Being 26 years old I never imagined looking and feeling like this. I was about 100 pounds less when I met my fiancé over 9 years ago. It's amazing how the weight can just add up, and depressing at that. If only it was as easy to lose weight as it is to gain weight. My first 28 days of food is on its way and I know once I start and get into a routine I should be good to go. It's always the weekends and special occasions that are the hardest because I do love food. I don't think I'm addicted per say, I just really really like the taste of food. Working nights doesn't help either because I think I am a major boredom eater. It's like hey theres nothing to do, lets snack. I know I need to change my ways and I'm determined to do it this time. I would like to lose at least 40-50 pounds before my wedding if that is even possible. I'm determined for my dress to be too big when I go for that first dress fitting. I guess we will see.