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Now Comes The Tough Part
Sigh.....I'm at 15 pounds down and am hitting that proverbial wall. It's soooo freakin' hard staying focused. I'm finding myself adding a little bit here and there, cheating on my free foods, having a bit more veggies. Yeah, I know they say we can have lots of veggies, but veggie calories are still calories! And they still add up! I have to try and stay around that 1200 calorie range or I won't lose any more. I wasn't one of those who used to eat 3000-4000 calories a day, I probably was around 2000-2500, so for me to lose I really have to be careful. And I'm getting demotivated.
I wanna go back to eating "normal." I wanna grill a steak on the grill with Dave. Have a glass of wine with the steak. Pop a Zatarain's rice in the microwave for us to share with dinner. Have a bowl of Grape Nuts Trail Mix for breakfast.
Up till now I've been OK, but I'm at the stage where I'm only going to be losing a pound or so a week and while rationally I know that and I know it's healthy, one lousy pound for a whole week's worth of work seems unfairly low!
Yeah, I know I should get to the gym, but with Dave working from home most of the time now, I get home from work and want to spend time with him. If he'd go to the office more I'd probably be able to convince myself to drag my butt to the gym when he's not home. But I've never liked exercise anyways...
I'm spending probably too much time on the board, trying to keep myself motivated. I need to somehow find the strength to give myself that proverbial kick in the butt. I still have a "3 months pregnant" lower belly and can't figure out what exercises to do to work on that, since crunches only seem to help the upper abs.
Dave's proud of me, but he is sensing my declining enthusiasm and motivation, and has started asking me if I'm cheating. I'm not, well not really (maybe only an extra 100-150 calories a day).
I really want to do this! I WANT THIS TO WORK! I want people to call me thin again. I don't want to be old either, but I have no control over that.
I joined a team (team purple) to try and motivate myself so I have responsibility to other people (like on The Biggest Loser) but it still ain't easy....
Not sure why I'm babbling all this, maybe just needed to put it down....
Published Wednesday, November 14, 2007 03:25 PM by Mzhelenp
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