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A New Decade! and a Birthday!

2010-01-14T05:07:00Z

Hip Hip Hooray!!! Goodbye you miserable 170s. I will NOT miss you! I squeezed into the 160s with an official WI of 169.8 today. Whew, that was close. haha.

I turned 33 this week and, unfortunately, it caused me to do a lot of self-reflection. Personally, I've had a bit of a roller coaster ride, but that's a different kind blog. Here, I'm going to focus on my NS weight loss journey. I've learned quite a bit during these past 2 months. I've learned to look at myself and see the positive instead of dwelling on the negative. I've learned that making good choices brings a happiness that is more true than the temporary happiness I used to get from excessive comfort food. I've learned that my body is capable of so much more than I thought it was. And, I've learned that I do have the time to take care of myself. I may not be exactly where I thought I'd be at 33, but I'm going to continue making myself a priority, thanking God for every beautiful day He gives me and my DS, and being true to my own heart.

When we were in Disney for New Years, I saw a Tinkerbell t-shirt that really struck me -- "Faith Trust and Pixie Dust." This is exactly what I need for 2010. I need faith because I've been tested, a lot. I definitely need to remember how to trust -- not just in others, but in myself. Equally important, I need to find a little magic and whimsy. Fairy tales and pixie dust. Life gets so serious -- work, kid(s), bills, exercise. This year, I going to try wishing on a star.

I DID IT!!! I DID IT!!! I RAN 2.75 MILES!!!

2009-12-21T11:10:00Z

YIPPEE!!!!! I am in week 8 of the couch to 5k program. For 7 weeks, I have been running 3-4 times per week and I have done ... ok. The first several weeks were good -- I ran when I was supposed to and looked forward to the walking intervals. The first time I had to run 2 full miles without walking, I was SO proud of myself because I did it -- almost -- I had to take 1 or 2 quick little breaks to get a drink of water. Well, once I gave myself permission to take a "quick little break" in the middle of a running interval, I broke my momentum. Then, every time I had to run for more than a mile, I allowed myself to take quick little breaks, as long as I got through the first mile. Now, I will give myself credit -- I was really working hard and my heart rate was high and I was burning mega calories. BUT, when I added up all of my breaks, I realized that I was NOT MOVING for 1/8 mile of my 2.5 mile run last week. That was pretty discouraging.

I had a rough weekend. Like so many others, we got lots of snow. Between being snowed in, and the holidays, and TOM, I was really lacking in discipline and motivation. I ate cookies. Not NS cookies. Chips Ahoy cookies. And Oreo cookies. For no reason.

Today, I picked myself back up. I stayed 100% on plan. I got back on my TM. I RAN 2.75 MILES WITH NO (NONE!) QUICK LITTLE BREAKS. I did not eat one thing that was not on plan today. Not one bite of a pretzel. Not one sip of lemonade. I feel fantastic! Of course, I ran at 10pm, so I'll probably be up until 3am, but who cares?

I'M BACK, BABY!!!

2010 Running Goals

2009-12-13T01:06:00Z

1. 5k in the spring.
2. 1M fun run with DS4 each month April to November.
3. 5k in the fall.
4. Finish a 5k on my TM in under 30 minutes.

So hard to believe that I am actually setting RUNNING goals!!!

Silly NSV (?)

2009-12-12T04:00:00Z

I was running on my TM today, as I do 4 times per week. I'm finding that I am really starting to love it. Anyway, for some reason, my heart rate monitor stopped picking up my pulse. I moved it around. I put more water on the sensors (though I was sweaty enough that I shouldn't have to). I yelled at it. Nothing worked. Then, it hit me -- it was too loose!!!! So, I tightened the strap and, sure enough, it worked again. Not sure if I would consider that a "victory," but it's a non-scale something! Hope everyone is having a great day!

Little Red Bear!!!

2009-12-09T10:02:00Z

I got my first bear! How cute he looked sitting in my box of yummy new food. I haven't officially hit 10 pounds yet (I think I'm at 9.6), so it was a very nice surprise. My asparagus is also happy to have the mushroom risotto back -- in all its glorious tomato-sauce-free wonderfulness!

I am also very happy to report that, after 6 weeks, this is starting to feel normal. Almost makes me wonder why I needed this major change in my lifestyle to realize something I should have known all along. Every day is not an excuse to eat something unhealthy. A salad and a zone bar seems like a perfectly reasonable lunch to me now. On the average day, I don't feel like I'm giving anything up or depriving myself. I sometimes feel like I'm taking care of myself, but mostly I feel like I'm just following a routine that is becoming very natural to me.

Now I can start looking forward to that next bear!

He finally forgave me!

2009-11-30T09:58:00Z

We all know what a b@$t@rd that scale can be sometimes. I mean, can he hold a grudge or what?!?! So, I made some good, some not good decisions on Thanksgiving. That morning, I weighed in at 176.4. Friday, 178.6, Saturday 178, Sunday 177.4, this morning 177.4 again. Finally, tonight, after my run, 176.2. It's ok, scale, I understand -- you've made your point, but I am so happy that you've finally forgiven me! Any chance he will reward me with a little drop before my Thursday weigh in? Last time he was mad at me, he held out for about 6 days, but then dropped a couple pounds overnight. Is there a repeat performance in my future? :)

Regardless, I am back in my size 10 pants!!!! And I'm super excited about it! :)

It works! One month "during" pics...

2009-11-29T02:00:00Z

I'm a little techno-challenged and I can't believe I'm posting these pics on the internet, but here it goes... One month in. Down 8 pounds. Doesn't sound like much, but I see it!

OK, I'm over it.

2009-11-28T08:21:00Z

Moving on. Today, I am going for a hair cut, then DS and I are going to mom's for some decorating. I have a plan -- breakfast first, save my morning snack, early lunch before I leave, yogurt and blueberries there, come home, late snack (saved from morning) here, dinner, dessert. And WATER!!!! I am wearing another pair of jeans today that fit but not so well. And, most importantly, I am going to have a wonderful day with my family. Of course, if they bring out cinnamon buns, I'll have to shoot them. :eeks:

Holidays...

2009-11-28T01:07:00Z

I know, everyone is blogging about the holidays. Yes, it's the holidays, and I should tell myself "get over it." But, I still struggle with feeling downright angry that everyone else is eating what they want and I, for some reason, have to eat less. I know, I know, I "want" to eat less because I'm on this fantastic weight loss journey, but, honestly, it's not feeling so fantastic right now. I ate yesterday. I ate more than I would have eaten on a normal day, but less than I would have eaten on a normal (ie, pre-NS) holiday. The bizarre part is that I don't even like my grandmother's cooking. Never have. She made some artichoke and white bean dish for me, which was very nice, but it was nothing wonderful. I didn't eat all that much, but I just kept waiting for something on my plate to be SOOOO good. Didn't happen. So why did I eat it? "Melissa, if you're going to make bad choices that slow your weight loss, at least save them for food you like." Seems pretty obvious. Today was ok. I ate all my food and nothing extra, but I did not exercise and I did not drink nearly enough water. When I stepped on the scale this am, I was up 2 from the day before. I weigh every day, so I know myself enough to know that tomorrow will be worse because it always seems to take a full day to show up on the scale. BUT, on a positive note, the jeans I wore yesterday have never fit me before and I got many compliments on how good I look -- surprised me because I haven't even hit 10 pounds yet. So, Thanksgiving is over, tomorrow is another opportunity to be 100% (including exercise and water), and Christmas is 28 days away. I'm not going to wish the holidays away just to get to January. I have a wonderful little boy who is super excited for Christmas. We are going to enjoy December for reasons that have nothing to do with food. I am going to try very hard to stay on track.

My 10 Reasons

2009-11-18T11:07:00Z

I have written my reasons for wanting to lose weight a few times and I always hid them in various places so I could pull them out when I needed them, but NO ONE else could see them EVER. This time is different. I am posting it right here for everyone to see because this time I'm committed.

1. I want to feel sexy!
2. I want to feel in control.
3. I want to wear the pretty clothes in my closet and enjoy shopping for smaller sizes when these get too big.
4. I want to reduce my risk of diabetes.
5. I want make a better first impression.
6. I want to be a good role model.
7. I want to enjoy going to the beach with my friends.
8. I want to look good in DS's childhood pictures.
9. I want to be a hot mama!
10. I want to live as long as I can.

I could easily come up with 10 more. Makes me wonder -- if I can easily spit out allll the reasons I want to lose weight, what took me so long?