Yep, I haven't even looked at the website for....well, a long while. I should be looking at it everyday. It really does help one keep focus and keep motivated. What happens when you lose motivation? You gain. Thank goodness I haven't lost complete motivation. I haven't gained, per se...but I haven't lost anything either. So- for all you NSers that are going strong- STAY strong. It's hell getting back to 100% like you should be. It's really easy to tell yourself that this one little thing isn't going to hurt your weightloss, or I can eat this and try for 100% tomorrow. Doesn't work, folks. You can talk yourself into eating ANYTHING. (Especially when you think- it didn't take me long to lose 50 lbs, if eating at Outback makes me gain a lb or two, it'll be gone again in no time!) Seriously, wrong frame of mind.
Luckily, like I said, I have been lucky enough to keep myself from gaining, but I've been a half of a pound away (give or take) from getting my 50 lb bear for at least a month now! I've lost no more than 5 lbs in all the time between Christmas and today. That should have been, what...almost 30? Seriously. I could have been in ONEderland by now. But- there is no use in thinking 'should have been'. It's now "What are you going to do about it?" I am getting myself into GO mode. No more excuses. 100% days from now on. I know what I've done wrong. I know how to fix it. Tough love obviously doesn't work for me. Different approach. I'm just going to stop being childish in my dietary thinking. I have to remember, just because I want something doesn't mean I should have it. I have to BE STRONG. Once I get back into the swing, I'm going to need to KEEP STRONG!
I have 9 more months until I walk down the aisle. I have a gorgeous dress. I want to look gorgeous in that dress. That is my motivation. I'm going to keep myself motivated by actually getting on the website more and reading and writing blogs like I used to. Every day. I thank y'all in advance for your support. :)
Peace, love, and no more M&M mini's-
Jessica