We went to my sisters house last night for my brother-in-law's birthday- I even made him a birthday cake and everything. (Which Patrick said was good- but I didn't have any.) Anyway, we got there and I was running around playing with the neices and nephews....getting a REALLY good workout in the process! LOL When it came time for my brother-in-law to open his birthday present, my sister escorted me over to the couch and said "sit here" because apparently his presents were supposed to be good! She wanted me to have a good seat to see it! (I thought he was getting a stripper! Ya know, one of those funny ones who come dressed as bag ladies or something!) Anyway, I sat down on the couch, right next to my granny, and my mom was on my other side...

   So, waiting for BJ to open his presents, and who walks into the front door with a huge box all wrapped up for Christmas? Patrick. He asked BJ if he minded if I got an early Christmas present, even though it was supposed to be BJ's birhtday party. He came over and said that he wanted to give me my Christmas present a little early this year- then he said that in thinking of all the things that I had done for him, that he wanted to do something for me...and he had my present specifically made. He hopes I like it...

   I opened the box, and in it was a pillow. Round and red, with while trim- and it had our names embroidered on it (in Patrick's own handwritting which was really cool!) and the date of our very first date! 01/20/01. It was beautiful! Then, he took the pillow from me, and said some really beautiful things- but y'all will just have to wait for the YouTube video for ALL the details. Of course, I'm sitting there completely clueless as to what he was doing, until he dropped the pillow down on the floor at my feet and started to kneel on it (as OUR song was playing in the background of course- he thought of EVERYTHING) I of course started to cry- and he proposed to me. It was AMAZING!

   So-that's my new motivation. To lose the rest of my weight to fit into a really amazing wedding dress- so that I can stun Patrick when I walk down the aisle, as he has stunned me. (and made it so I'm floating on a cloud all day today!) And to top it all off- like a little cherry on my fluffy cloud of happiness, I am only ONE pound away from my Christmas Eve goal of 225!!!

Life is so so sweet!

Jessica a.k.a. the future Mrs. Crockarell