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DAY 647 AVOIDING STRESS BINGING...
Okay, so for the past several days I've been white-knuckling it on the avoidance of stress binging peeps!!! *gritting teeth* I've eaten twice completely off Plan in attempt to appease and pacify the stress binge devil. Both meals were like Heaven on earth *ahhhhhh, Angels singing* and the other meals for each day were NS friendly so I didn't go wheels off my Friends. But I did feel a twinge of guilt for deliberately eating more cals and bigger portions on each meal than I knew I should. Did I consider doggie bags and eating it later? NOPE... the comfort each meal provided at the time in a very stressful situation was too much like a drug and I desperately needed a 'fix'. *sigh* I knew it would not be habitual so I reasoned that it was better than depriving myself to a point where emotions, unbearable stress and hunger pangs ganged up on me and I'd throw up the white flag, throw in the towel and totally binge, throwing all caution to the wind. *LOL* I had seen my hands shaking a bit from nerves and taking meds for stress is out of the question, over the years food has been my drug of choice. *wink* I'm just not a pill popper and prescription drug use scares me as much as street drug use given some of the tragic casualties of it I've witnessed over the years. Not that becoming a fattie again isn't equally scary and thankfully the length on Plan has been terrific rehab for a foodie such as myself. Ninety nine point nine percent of the time I do really well and that's a celebration and a victory I am still amazed at, given my track record for a seven year period prior to NS. Truly amazing how Italian or Greek food stops the shakes of the Food DT's for me *wink*, Manicotti and Gyros could be my Crack... *LOL* And it was more than a little ironic that after a long day at the VA Hospital yesterday of visiting my DH in the Mental Health Ward, there I was sitting at a Greek Restaurant called "Crazy Jim's"! *LMAO* I'm still waiting for Dr. Drew to have a "Food Rehab" reality show... they've gotten as far as Drug, Alcohol and Sex Rehab now... so Food has GOT to be next, right???!!! *smiles* Dr. Drew is hot... he could definitely counsel me *wink* and help me with this food addiction thang... but, until then, you guys are certainly cheaper than therapy *smiles*... and as always, THANKS, YOU ROCK!!!
Published Monday, November 09, 2009 11:05 AM by Being-restored
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